I could spent all summer sitting here making daisychains

Oh my god I'm having the worst hangover you can imagine, litterly when I woke up I was still drunk but I had to be somewhere at 12 and I couldn't walk straight. What have I done yesterday? It was crazy, one of those nights I'm not gonna forget anytime soon. I remember coming home with a hole in my t-shirt, which is really shitty because it was new and really happy with it, but ofcourse yesterday it was hilarious. I was trying to climb over a fence. Also I remember coming home with only 1 earring, I probably lost it during my climbing. I'm even embarressed typing this but I also made someone cheat on his girlfriend. Oh jesus what have I done, I'm gonna have to lay down for a moment. It's been some weekend.

In the morning all will see, just how crazy young love can be

I love my girlfriends, I really really do. They've been there for me in times when I really needed them and I can say without any doubt that none of them would do anything bitchy behind me back. But sometimes.. I don't know, girls will be girls you know. Me and my friends, we're good people but I just have to say that every girl can be so bitchy from time to time. Our friendship has been really tested the last couple of weeks. And from all those years we spent together as a really tight group, I can honestly say that it's always the boys bringing the trouble. Jealousy.. love.. cheating, it fucks everything up and it really makes you question everything. 3 of my best friends are in serious relationships right now, though I'm happy for them, after a little while I could just feel that they rather spent time with their boyfriends than friends. Like what are we, some temporary timefilling beings who you could push aside so easily, just because you have a boyfriend and now you're allowed to. Love can be dangerous, especially at my age. I've been in love before, but I never really loved loved someone. I've never been in a serious relationship before. Commitmentissues, trustissues, I don't know I don't care. All I know is that I like to flirt and have crushes, at this point in my life I don't even want anything serious. And for me it's really friends over boys.

It’s time now to sing out, tho the story never ends let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.. remember

I've had a crazy week, from thursday until this morning I've been partying/dancing/drunk, carnaval has come to an end so it's time to get back te reality starting today: just got back from work.. I hate how fast things go, this week was so much fun but not only have I been drinking like an idiot, I've been thinking alot. This week made me realize a lot of things:
#girls are so mean, sometimes I wish I only had boys as friends. Girls are evil gossipqueens who're doing things/saying things only for their own benefit. You just never know what they think of you, they're nice to your face but you just don't know what they're saying behind your back. And why all the drama, always.
#love doesn't come flying into your face out of nothing, if I'd like something to be done I really need to take matters in own hands. I don't know how but I need to make a plan, it just doesn't work anymore.
#also I realized that having dinner in a restaurant and run away before paying the bill is not a good idea. It may seem the perfect way out of you're hungry and broke when you're drunk but it just isn't. Especially when you know half of the staff of the restaurant.
#I should really try to live in the presence instead of always dreaming, fantasizing and wondering about stupid stuff that isn't going to happen ever. I need to realize that there just are things impossible in live, try to stay realistic. I feel like if I want to, really really want to, I could do anything. I'm an optimistic dreamer and I should try not to lose myself in my dreams.
#karma really is a bitch, it's always coming to you when you least expect it.
#alcohol is becoming my biggest enemy, this week I almost woke up every morning thinking what the HELL have I done yesterday
I'm going to sleep now, I'm too tired to think, luckily for me there's a scrubs marathon on TV
xoxo

don't you just love goodbyes

'Most of our lives we try so hard
to find the time
I won't care for you
like I'm really supposed to
there are things I'll do
that could really hurt you'
mew

words made of wisdom

So I'm kind of a quotenerd, sometimes words/lyrics/quotes can leave such a huge impression on me. I'm following philosophy on school and to me it's so inspiring that these old man who lived thousands of years ago, didn't had electricity/homes like we know them or any sort of certainty of life, so much yet to discovere. Still they were able to think about life, human nature and ways to live in a different way than they were used to in that time. The main goal was surviving, life was probably more simple at the time, yet more complicated I gues.. Not only philosophers but also songwriters and other artists can sometimes really blow me away with their lyrics, I read/hear it and it flies straight-up to my soul. It's a weird feeling, as if I can feel it. Here are some of my favourits:

Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions.
Edgar Cayce

If there is no struggle, there is no progress.
Frederick Douglass

If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living.
Gail Sheehy

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
William Shakespeare

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.
Marcel Proust

Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.
David Grayson

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.
Javan

Love conquers all.
Virgil

and ofcourse every lyrics coming from caleb followil himself is a piece of masterwork, some of my fav's:

It's safe to say, if I dont get this out of me, I just might easily end up dead or just mad
Mcfearless

Hey, you know it aint coincidental that you're lost in place, it's dripping of your face and you're losing your precious mind.. well send me a postcard if you get that far
Wicker Chair

In the dark of the night I could hear you calling my name. With the hardest of hearts I still feel full of pain. So I drink and I smoke and I ask if you're ever around. Even though it was me who drove us right in the ground
Revelry

I never ever cried when I was feeling down, I've always been scared of the sound. Jesus don't love me, no one ever carries my load. I'm too young to feel this old.
Cold Desert

And so many many more!
xoxo

I remember the sound of your november downtown, and I remember the truth of a whole december with you

feeling quite joyfull, the snow is melting, less accidents happen and my tickets to pinkpop are guaranteed! school is also going well, which wasn't always the case! so my parents are finally in peace as well. I'm getting ready for the biggest, nicest, drunkest party of the whole year; CARNAVAL. the time where everybody's drunk, makes out, live in peace while wearing some idiotic costume! and all this for 7 days straight! with the weekend coming up I all I can say is; life's good:) please let it stay this careless!