I can't forget the past but I can pretend I'm ok.

this is the third day I'm skipping school and I'm loving it, I've cleaned my whole room, catched up with my homework, discovered good music, took some lang baths and I'm totally relaxedd :). sometimes I need this, a couple days of doing absolutely nothing and I'm becoming good at it! I also catched up with Gossip Girl, I've missed the last three episodes but now I'm up to date again (I'm in love with Chuck, I hate his uncle ^*&#@! and I love Vanessa and Dan together).
It's pretty insane how the highschooldrama keeps following me, even when I'm not in school. I love meeting new positiv people, new energy has been surrounding me last couple of weeks and so far so good. It's nice when you meet new people, they don't know the in's and out's of your life and they're not in a position to judge you. feels like a fresh start. so these 'new' friends heard some rumours and gossips about me, things I've done years ago.. I don't understand why anyone feels the need to discuss my private life with other people and why you wanna be in my business so much. Everybody has made mistakes or done things which they're not proud of and after a while leave the past to the past but for some reason the past keeps following me.. Anyhow, that kinda sucks. but over the years I've learned to be the bigger person and not care so much:) So i'm trying to do that! This will be my last 'free' day, so I'm gonna enjoy it with a nice cup of coffee and tv!
xxx

TIME FOR HEROES

Did you see the stylish kids in the riot
We were shovelled up like muck
Set the night on fire
Wombles bleed truncheons and shields
You know I cherish you my love

let me tell u a little secret..

I'll tell you a secret.
Something they don't teach you in your temple.
The Gods envy us.
They envy us because we're mortal.
Because any moment might be our last.
Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.
You will never be lovelier than you are now.
We will never be here again.



Ohh Troy, this movie will never bore me, nor will achilles body..

teenage wasteland

hellll yes bitches, the sun came out and it made me craving for change! the summer is slowly making its way in holland and as each year I felt the need to dye my hair blond again! and so I did, I'm blond, fresh and happy again! and yesss it's true, blonds have more fun! yesterday was the first hot day here, to celebrate I went lunching with some girls in the city in the sun with a bottle of wine, and some more! lovely, I really missed it. can't waith for the real summer te begin! spending whole days laying in the sun, sunglasses on, combinated with white wine or a cold beer followed by late summernights with friends. everythings going well at the moment, school, friends even boys! and sun, you're more than welcome to show your face some more!
have a good weekend, I know I will!
xx

Things I love..

festivals concerts live music, I live for.. I breathe it



my friends, my girls.. they're my family, they keep me standing




I'm a party gal, I love being drunk careless and dancing till sun rises, takes my mind of the daily stress




I love wise words




Coffee and foods, brings me joy



fashion baby



movies and tvshows, I'm a tvaddict and I like to get caught up in someone elses story



summer, travelling and roadtrips.. little getaways



Love, it frustrates me the most, it keeps me up at night. broken hearts with tears, it hurts me the most.. still, at the end of the day it's what we all are looking for right?

Time

Time is all I fear
It’s why I just keep running
The quest for love was all that you and I held dear
With the beat still in your head
And a good book by your bed
We will survive
Mr. Hudson

where do you wanna be when all your friends have settled down in the suburbs on the greener side of town?

I'm sooo getting tired of these cold dark short days when all you wanna do is lay in bed en be lazy. Ready for the summer, it's march and last week it was still snowing!! Rumour has it that it'll be 15 degrees next week, that's a start! I'm off the fieldhockey practise.. outside.. brr..
xoxo

my gift is my song..

Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.

— Plato

in time.. do you forget?

My life is such a chaos, not the best week I'm having I guess.. I had no idea my actions from last weekend would infect so many people. Sucks to feel hurt, but it's way more suckier when you're the one hurting someone else. Rumours are controlling my life and I´m feeling so bad and guilty that I even feel sick in my stomach. If only I could turn back time..

we drank wine in the matinee and the spotlight showed what it chased away

I'm a truelly obsessed fan of Kings Of Leon, to me there is no band who does it better. And not just a 'Sex on Fire' or 'Use Somebody'-fan, no I'm a diehard since the beginning. From the moment my father took me to a U2concert and they were the support band. I'm still very thankfull for that.. Caleb Followill's voice speaks right to my soul, they're brilliant and they're true. I love everything about them, they're family and very close and not trying to keep up appearances. And the lyrics.. they're real artists, I'm so happy with their live DVD in the 02 London. I cannot watch that version of 'Cold Desert' without getting tears in my eyes. You know when you hear a song of them, they mean every word of it and they put all their power in it. I saw them in July for the last time. An amazing experience, I laid for hours and hours in front of Ahoy and yess I was standing first row, in front of Caleb with not even 2m distance. I was looking forward to this night for months and months and I remember how I felt.. as if I could faint any moment. So much energy that I kinda missed the whole drama going on on stage. Appaerently it wasn't their best night, there was some tension between the Followills and according to Caleb the audience sucked and there were problems with the sound. I don't know, there are a lot of versions of that night. Anyhow the night ended without getting an encore and they just walked of. The audience was going crazy and my heart stopped beating. Still it was one of the best nights in my life, mostly because they rocked the songs that they did play and I was so close, really nothing could get in the way! I'm still having some mixed feelings when thinking back at that night. But then I thought of something that comfors me a little. That night only proved how real they are. They're not putting on a mask and going on stage to perform some act as a sort routine. Kings of Leon go on stage as theirselves and they show how they're feeling at the moment and everything they do, they mean it. And for me this is they way it has to be, music and performing some of your own music has to stay real. And that night they just had a bad night, like everybody has! Long story short: I can't waith for them to return to Holland :). Here's one of my favourite vid's of KOL with Eddie Vedder performing Slow Night So Long. xoxo.